Known you for years, from when you was a little man and I was that little woman
As you grown, and I 've grown we stayed friends to a crush we had on one another
We spoke and spent time and had many late night talks to a snore that would catch us in the night
Then one day I woke up to a new day where we no longer talked, the snore out of site, had our different lives outside of our life circle of years knowing each other
Years went on until you found me on the wonderful world of Myspace
I was the kid once again that you was aware of
We once again left off from where we started, late night talks, hearing the snores to moment waking texts
It seemed the same but the knots in my tummy told me different
When you told me you had a girlfriend you been with for 2 years ( on and off)
How was I to bare with my childhood moments that had me wondering would it be you
After my heartbreak- you came to rescue me- but the ball of knots told me differently
Why Me, I say to myself- Another Heart break from a friend
NO, I say to myself, Not Another Heart Break......
We continued to stay friends with our hearts tied at the ends
only to have feelings regained again and again
Then that day you said you wanted me and had always had feelings for me
There I was hoping and wishing for more, which you lead me into depths of your soul
But to only hear the words that 'Your heart belongs to her'
Wow- unfound feelings that cannot be explained
Why me- not him- my friend will not hurt me
I felt plain and out of site, only to be used because you are confused
I guess you had me fooled,blinded with the thoughts of you from being my chidhood friend
Yes, I hurt, feels like torture
Only for you to try again knowing my feelings were in
I wanted that relationship to end, to the core of my being was almost bending
Because of loving you, was willing to settle of being the other woman
To only hear the words again,
The childhood relationship had to End
Because I chose Me!
1 comment:
People have often said that a man and woman can not have a friendship and that it is subjected to something more. Why, does it never have a happy ending when our bestfriends are often the opposite sex. Why do we feel the need to cross the line is the question? It is because that person knows our intermost thoughts which we have never shielded. We become each other's leaning tower which seems like can never be torn down. We can stay on the phone or up in person all night long because we have no walls with that person. We feel safe and have faith that they would be the ones to never hurt us. We share our loves, our feelings, our hearts to them like an open book. I can speak from experience that it is not a good thing to cross the line with the best child hood friend not matter the situation. They have the keys that unlock every door in our lives. Once the line is crossed and the true person is revealed it is very hard to get into that sweet spot with them again. Why? because a violation has occured the peanalty to much for the heart to handle. That good friend will someday regret that he trampled over the heart that knew every beat of his heart.
Ms.A
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